Ida Scott Taylor wrote: “Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone,
and do not be troubled about the future, for it has yet to come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.”
August 25 starts yet another new beginning for me. Last year at this time I had boxes stacked up in my parents’ bedroom with labels such as “desk supplies” “bed set” “tshirts” “makeup” “technology” etc… and now today, I am sitting on my bed watching as my friends “tweet” things such as “____ days until move in, but who’s counting?” And instead of leaving with them, I get to sit and watch them reconnect with their college buddies and go back to their freshman year friend groups, as I transfer to a new school and not only am I transferring but I am commuting. You might as well put a big NO FRIENDS label on my forehead…
Days when I think about how hard and weird and frustrating it will be to transfer, I wish I stayed at my previous University with all the friends I made and the neighborhood I was used to. But, I am looking at the past in a different light then it was when it was the present. The past is simply just stories we tell ourselves. I need to stop looking at the past and being upset about decisions or having regrets. I also need to stop seeing the future as this scary black tunnel of mystery. For now, I need to think about today.
Today, I cleaned the house for my mom. Today, I am writing to my readers. Today, I will go to the gym. Today, I will be happy that it is still summer and I had two days off work in a row. Today, I will be incredibly grateful that I live in one of the most amazing cities in the world. Today, I will look forward for the time I still have left with my friends before they all disperse across the MidWest. Today, I will tell you, my readers, how much I love your support and comments. I have had many somewhat “random” people that I did not expect to read my blog, walk up to me and tell me how much they enjoy reading my blog. “You must really have your life together,” they say. “You sound like you know where you are headed in life, that’s amazing.” But, I don’t know where I’m going, all I know is where I am. And I am incredibly happy with where I am.
So remember that happiness comes in many different forms. Happiness comes in the company of friends, the hug of a family member, when a promise is kept, even in things as small as waking up to your favorite song playing on the radio. Don’t be afraid to let yourself be happy for today. For this minute. Because each minute that passes is a minute you won’t get back.