Lately I have been doing a lot of thinking, a good amount of writing, and an ABUNDANCE of meditation & yoga. And each day, each hour, each minute that I absorb myself into this life, I am beginning to understand more of how this life works. I have spent a majority of time saying “why me?” but why not me? The truth is that we we live in a reality where pain is what makes us know it is real. Pain is what makes us alive. And I am beginning to know now what ‘this thing’ is all about…for now.
I am beginning to understand that it’s not about creating a perfect reality. It’s not about finding peace in everything we do. And despite what I have been saying for months on months, It’s not even about happiness. As long as we cling to the idea that life is supposed to be anything at all- we are going to be disappointed. We are going to get hurt. There is no planning what is ahead. I wouldn’t have planned to attend two different colleges in two years and still not being satisfied with my second choice. I planned to be a physical therapist in 6 years from when I accepted my invitation to school and now I am looking at Grad Schools for Counseling and Children’s Therapy….Life is just one big adventure. And no matter how hard we try, we can’t prepare for it. We can practice yoga and we can meditate and we can pray and we can work our way through past hurts. We can believe in good karma and be kind and we can do our best to be good people. But we cannot predict what lies ahead. Think the meaning of life is being happy? Perhaps, but I think that the meaning of life is to feel.
It is to feel every emotion, every pain, every warmth from the top of your head to the soles of your feet. We all need to take each moment as it comes. When joy arrives, be grateful but don’t expect it to drive you the rest of the way. When pain arrives, you are allowed to feel it but don’t cling onto it. Be grateful for it all because it’s part of the adventure. It is part of your adventure. Open up to everything life brings you and know that nothing is permanent and that’s a wonderful thing. Sadness or joy. Happiness or pain. Love and Hate. Friendships and Acquaintances.
So, don’t try to know it all- because there is so much beauty in the unknown.