“For what it’s worth, it’s never too late to be whoever you want to be. I hope you live a life you’re proud of, and if you find that you’re not, I hope you find the strength to start over.” – F. Scott Fitzgerald
To me, starting over is one of the scariest things that life offers us. Starting over means cleaning your plate off of everything you have come to know and trying to fill that plate back up again. I had to step back from my blog, step back from my public writing and regain the sight of who I am. I was becoming someone who focused on numbers. How many people bought my book? How many blog followers do I have? Have I gained any ‘likes’ on my Facebook page. Numbers, Numbers, Numbers! I needed it stop.
With that being said, I am hoping to slowly get back into the flow of things again. For those of you still reading, thanks for sticking around. For those of you that are new, welcome! My name is Kelly and I write about whatever ideas are floating around my brain during that time. Today, I am choosing to talk about starting over. As many of you have read previously, a few years ago when I went away to college, I quickly learned that I am a homebody. I enjoy coffee in the morning with my dad, watching DWTS with my mom, snuggling with my dog, and bugging my brother until he locks his door. Not much has changed.
I am trying to figure out a big step I want to take and how to go about doing it. Yes, that is a vague sentence. But I can’t put details on here just yet, at least not until I figure things out. It is a choice between what I want to do and what other’s want me to do. It is a choice that will create a clean slate for a little while. I think I need a clean slate. I become too comfortable with routine and when that routine breaks, as do I. But I do think through big decisions thoroughly. Probably too thoroughly. I’ve been debating taking this ‘big step’ since Summer and I won’t have to make the decision until Spring. So no matter what I choose, at least I know that I put careful thought and consideration into it.
Anyway, I chose that quote by F. Scott Fitzgerald because he often speaks to me. Well, not literally of course. But a lot of his quotes and books really mean more than the typical ‘words on a page’ to me. I can be whoever I want to be. I didn’t like who I was becoming, so I stopped it in it’s tracks. I have the power to change. And so do you.
So remember, it takes courage to move forward but it takes strength to turn around.
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