What I have found

“She wasn’t bitter. She was sad, though. But it was a hopeful kind of sad. The kind of sad that just takes time.” –The Perks of Being A Wallflower

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I have remembered my passions.

I feel absolutely amazing. I have found what my heart really beats for. Rather- I have remembered where my heart is at home. For a while, I didn’t care if it was right or wrong, I forced myself to love somewhat of a figment of my imagination. I had changed so much that I convinced myself and my heart of what I wanted. My life is no longer just a boring weekly routine. I have found my heart a home, now that it is not settling down.


I have found my voice.


I have found my real friends.

I have always been surrounded by so many people. But, due to this ‘tragedy’ I have found the ons who appreciate me. The ones who reach out a hand, the ones who text me just to check up to make sure I am okay, and the ones who spent nights in rather than going out and having ‘fun’. I have found the people I had thought I lost.


I have rediscovered my path.

Remember my journey? I found it again. I have found a map that reflects who I am and where I am going. I have find something that guides me to where I need to go. My road may not always be straight and paved, but the curves, the bumps, and the sharp turns are all inspire me. I have found who I am supposed to be, not just who I wanted to be.


I have remembered who I am.

I figured out what I do and don’t want. I have written pros and cons down on so many sheets of paper, I thought my room was going to turn into a recycling bin. I realized that I love being mesmerized. I stopped settling for okay – when my whole life I have strived for perfection. I realized that I love things about me and you don’t have to. I realized that I carried so much of your pain that it starting to tear away at my happiness. I have turned on my light, now that I don’t have your darkness.

I have now confirmed that I always jump two feet in. But now, I am happy, happier than I think I have ever been. I just woke up one day and decided that I wasn’t going to be sad. I decided to be happy.

I have learned what it is like to love someone for everything they are: for their strengths and weaknesses. I have learned that I am deserving of so much more. I now understand fully to never settle for anything less than what I deserve. I have become a happier version of myself. Today, I am prospering. Tomorrow I might be sad. But I have had so much progress in these past few weeks. Progress in self-love, growth, and happiness. These days I am being selfish. And I love it. This week I laughed so hard that I cried. My tears were out of pure joy and no longer pain. If that is not progress… I don’t know what is.

So remember, sometimes the problem is not the intensity of your love, but the quality of the people you are loving.


Kelly Anne



2 thoughts on “What I have found

  1. Great read Kelly! I’m so glad to have such a talented writer as a friend! I am so glad you are doing well and I cannot wait to see you this summer! Love you to the moon and back! 🙂

    1. love you too m.kot!!! you’re the best and have done nothing but support me. thank you for your love and laughter. can’t wait to see you soon.

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