“…and the remarkable truth is this: When I stopped interrogating myself about what went wrong, I began attracting everything … that was right” -Alfa
I got off the phone with one of my best friends earlier and explained everything that has happened.. and she said “Kelly, I am proud of you.”
This is such an important blog post today. This is a post YOU need to read. I want you to know that one day you are going to wake up and you will be okay. You will be sitting still one day, look down, and see that your hands aren’t shaking anymore. You won’t feel this knot in your throat everytime you go to speak. One day you will cook breakfast for dinner in your favorite t-shirt and dance and sing to oldies radio. One day you will look in the mirror and smile, because you rediscovered and learned to love yourself again. You moved forward. . . you didn’t move on.
Sometimes life sucks. 2016 has just been kicking my teeth in. Sometimes life is confusing and messy and nothing makes sense. But you will grow. You will find the people you were meant to find. You will develop friendships with someone because you decided to take a step forward and literally say “did we just become best friends” and you may even fall in love with a boy you meet in your algebra class. You are going to go to karaoke nights at bars and you’re going to look out airplane windows and feel so small- yet so on top of the world.
One day you will feel things fall into place. You will feel it all at once. And you will feel complete all on your own. One day life will just smack you in the face with a smile. You’ll be able to look back at yourself 6 days, 6 weeks, or even 6 months ago and be glad you didn’t give up.
So, this is just ME telling YOU that its ok not to be ok. But one day you will be ok again and when you are, it will be amazing.